Holding Inadequacy

What does it feel like to be holding inadequacy? How do we know what is insufficient on purpose? What is the purpose?

These are questions we must all ask ourselves every so often while facing unprecedented times. Together. Yes, despite our isolation, despite our disconnection, we are together. The question remains how we find a way of feeling sufficiently together and in community, when we cannot experience community.

The word adequate comes from the Latin:

Ad- meaning to

Aequus - meaning equal

Combining them gives you "to equal." So it can be agreed that when something is adequate it possesses the capability to equal something. To equal our expectations? To equal our hopes? To equal or joys? To equal our fears? How much in life truly gives us a true feeling of equalling what we need at that moment? Likely, not much. And when it does, isn't it often a delightful surprise?

So then, where do we find anything to equal what we need in times we've never experienced. See, that is just it. Every step is a new step. We all start over, every day on the same starting line. So how can we measure what is equal, what is adequate, much less fulfilling?

The only answer, no, strike that word. The only response is to make room to hold the inadequacy of this entire moment. And in the dis-ease, and in the dis-equal, and in the dis-tare (Latin for stand apart), we are left to lean inward, to our inner stance, and put our head on our soul shoulder and hold space to listen.